Time to surrender myself to myself…
Life doesnt always go the way we hope for.. and all we can do is look back with open eyes in order to look forward with new eyes…
Here I was thinking that you’re supposed to be safer the more you protect yourself… guess it isn’t always so.
If I can be truly vulnerable and still be comfortable I am stronger than ever… time to surrender.
Blackout by Muse – all credits to Muse
Mad World…
spent some time with my girlfriend today playing the youtube russian roulette… it’s probably not the best description as there is very little randomness to it all..
we simply played songs we liked and altered between songs and laptops.. I was suprised there werent more songs I found appealing to us both though there were quite a few unexpected ones..
It did however take us both down the memory lane and we both rediscovered music that used to mean a lot but was somehow forgotten to leave room for new music.. With a fairly open mind I can conclude that I used to listen to much better music in my earlier years.. when music was fulfilling one of three main criteria .. good lyrics… good musicianship handling the instruments or latter in life.. a undeniable good bass line ..
After I while I had depleted her storage and she went to bed.. OR.. she went to bed because she was tired and didn’t enjoy reminiscing old music as much as I did.. doesn’t really matter.. I kept playing my tunes…
Somehow I realized though that most of my songs were in one way or another either the inspiration that led me to believe and perceive the world as I do… or they were simply in my favor for being aligned with that same view… either way it was somehow so discomforting to realize that the song that ended my reminiscence got me to think that I’m messed up… I stopped once I reached Mad World by Gary Jules.. it simply summarised everything so simply that there were no more next songs to fulfill any more gaps or emotions, wants or experiences…
When “Mad World” is repeatedly the end of every journey I make to try and realize myself and my surroundings it just may be the right time to stop thinking altogether…
Gaddafi .. seriously?
So when the Maltese papers refuse to let me comment on their news articles I turn to my own little space for ranting.. I guess comments there would be read just as much as my random thoughts here anyway so it may not matter all that much..
Where to start regarding this Gaddafi character? I mean when I was growing up in Sweden he had very little impact on my life… I’m not sure I even knew of his existence and I must shamefully admit that when he popped up in the news recently my first thought was somewhere in the lines of.. “I thought his name was Khadaffi” .. go figure..
Anyway.. as I’m living in a small (400k pop.) country located neatly as a landing place in the Mediterranean sea where religion is the thing to go by (highly catholic, divorce illegal) I tend to find amusement and sadness in every day life… Watching the article comments in local newspapers is hilarious.. I’ve never seen such hypocrisy so bluntly displayed ..
There are outrageous commentators every time there is a discussion about whether this country should introduce divorce or not as this obviously will sling the population into uncontrolled orgies of lust and immorality.. It is very important to defend the christian values
But when the current crisis in libya is making prominent people in this country write articles stating that the crisis will lead to mass immigration of “biblical proportions” the people here are crying out for the government to protect them from this horrible scenario…
Whatever happened to helping people in need? I thought that was a fairly christian value…
Yet another attempt…
So once again Valinald.com is up..
Managed to drop the domain to some scavengers that thought they could get me to pay them to get it back…
Guess they got tired of waiting.. with my usual update rate I can renew the domain once per post anyway….
Still haven’t figured out what I intend to do here yet.. guess it will be the usual ranting and then see how it develops..
right now I’m off for a month of vacation so there wont be much happening here for a while..